One Year Later

Yesterday was the one year anniversary no one wants to occur to them, but it happened to me and my love ones. Although I had the foresight to prepare myself for that dreadful day for some time, when the day came all the preparation was useless. I’ve had to find out how I fit here now, who I am in this new place. Although there is no right or wrong way to deal with the passing of a love one, it seamed to me at some point that I had to attempt to move forward with life while honoring the past. And so I took a leap of faith and embarked on an adventure which has shown me how lucky I am and how wonderful people can be and how important relationships are.
Pat and Marie and all my family have stood behind me and supported me and has made this transition to a new life easer than I had expected. The new question on this leg of the journey, or at least on the way around the loop, is Where do I belong?

Barbara has left a great legacy , two beautiful Children and five grandchildren. Has always loved her eight brothers and sisters and parents. Has loved and cherished friends and coworkers at Fonder Orthopedic Group. And without a doubt was loved by all.

As I write in this moment it is very clear to me that I stand in my own Being of today, on a new plateau across the most recent bridge of change. For whatever it means and whatever it is worth, I am the culmination of all my life and experiences. Yet, I am only this moment. – This is plagiarism but it sounds good.

Honestly, as I sit here alone with the gloomy rain falling on my boat, I wish to reflect back on how fortunate I was to have Barbara in my life and how happy she made me.
I am who I am today and move forward with my life because of her love.